the death of Dr. Alphys

UNDERTALE SPOILERS HERE.....OBVIOUSLY!!

so....i'm seriously in love with Dr. Alphys from Undertale, she's probably my favorite fictional character of all time right now and a comic like this might seem like a weird way to do fanart of her....but theres a reason why i wanted to draw this particular scene XD

...in a few neutral playthroughs of Undertale, its alluded that Dr. Alphys commits suicide at the end, as its VERY obvious throughout the game that she suffers from depression, lack of confidence, and other self-loathing personality traits that have made her suicidal. i know the events of this comic might not fit like a glove on any of those endings, but still nobody has drawn any art of Alphys committing suicide, despite the endings where she kills herself and all the self-destructive traits she has. expect more Undertale art from me in the near future! i wanna make up for this pic by doing a less emo pic of Alphys....maybe her getting a nice long planeh hug x3

i really dont like how this comic turned out though....the setup is terrible, partly due to the fact that i wrote her suicide note before starting the comic, so i had to make it fit somehow everything reads left to right like a normal comic, but this definitely doesnt direct the eye like a proper comic should. plus i feel like whenever i try doing serious pics, they never turn out as emotionally effective as i want them to >.<

Alphys note:
Hey... if you're reading this, then i guess its obvious what happened. i was not strong enough to tell the truth about all the horrible things ive done. despite everyone's support and my own best efforts, i just cant overcome my fear and lack of confidence. truth is i've always hated myself. i fail at everything i say and do, and because of that, all i've done is hurt people. my one chance at redemption was my work as royal scientist, but i failed miserably. i wish i could have the strength to tear down the wall of lies i've built, but i cant. im just a weak coward who doesnt deserve to be happy. its up to you now to tell everyone the truth about me and what i've done. its time for the fallen monsters to go home. human... i wish i could have been more helpful, but i messed up and i'm sorry. i still enjoyed our time together none the less. mettaton... you are an amazing friend, i'm so glad to have known you. i know one day you'll be the star you've always dreamed of. undyne...i love you, i just...wish you could have known...